Thursday, March 09, 2017

Five Minute Friday: Abandon

For Five MInute Friday, Kate's given us abandon. Part of FMF fun is the wildly different directions people take with a single word. When I've mastered the notes and the technique of a Beethoven Sonata, I love being able to perform it with measured abandon; describing the joyful ease of playing the piano when I know the music well would be a natural. I usually keep my FMFs singingly light, but this time?

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Five minutes, here I come!
One of those as if only yesterday memories. City sounds outside. Lights dimmed.

I stayed still in bed, watching the clock, waiting for my Dad to return home. 11:45 and "something delayed him tonight; he'll be home tomorrow." Ten years worth! That may not sound long from the perspective of more or less chronologically mature Five Minute Friday peeps, but for anyone between the ages of 4 and 14 it accounted to several centuries. Finally one day I realized Dad wasn't coming home yet. I needed to get on with my life. Fourteen years old! Working papers! A real paying job! So I declared him dead.

Fast forward a few decades. Staying with my late mother. I told her I'd met my Dad's family in Former City then asked, "but why didn't you tell me he wasn't coming back! Why didn't you tell me he was gone?" She calmly replied, "I didn't need to say anything. It was obvious." What child ever would imagine a parent had abandoned her?

Telephone call one evening. "This is your older sister..." I'd found out in former city I had a younger sister—older sister was quite some surprise. So we talked. And talked. Sister: "Our Dad wanted me to tell you this isn't the way he'd wanted it to be He tried many times to see you, but always got turned down."

What person of any age believes a parent would abandon them?

City sounds outside. Lights dim. it's evening. Soon night will fall.
Five minutes flat.

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5 comments:

Meg Weyerbacher said...

Oh my goodness. It hurts my heart to know of anyone having to go through this. Prayers for your heart. Thank you for sharing so openly, and so vividly. Bless you #fmf neighbor!

Andrew said...

Oh, Leah! I'm so sorry you had to experience this. The hurt in your words brought tears to my eyes.

I'm praying for you.

#2 at FMF this week.

http://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2017/03/your-dying-spouse-282-for-loves-sake-fmf.html

Jennifer Cook said...

As you, I like the different directions a word pulls writers. I'm an FMF writer too. Up early on the east coast. I'm trying to read before I write today. It is nice. I like seeing the mind's eye of so many people who write differently about "abandon." I cannot imagine my dad disappearing for years or siblings! Thank you for sharing this story. It is never easy to go through hard times or puzzling ones. May we all experience love from others and be truthful to kids. They need the truth. Amen. Jenn

Tara Ulrich said...

I'm sorry you've had this experience friend. It breaks my heart. I'm in the 41 spot this week.

river song said...

thanks, everyone for visiting, for your compassion, prayers, and support!